Suddenly

Sometimes you are so taken aback by unexpected events that the full effect of them does not set in until the next day. Kristen, Lee's ex- girlfriend of 10 years. . . died. We got a call from Jesse's mom, who was very close with Kristen, yesterday evening that she had been taken to the hospital in an ambulance and that she was very sick. Only a few minutes later we got a second call. . . I could hear crying on the other line. (I wasn't on the phone.) Kristen had passed away. And the worst part was, Lee was on call that night; he was the one who had to bring her in. - She was so young. . .

I knew Kristen, not well but she was around when I first started dating Jesse. We got along really well. . .

It didn't really sink in until this afternoon. I suppose the shock wore off. I feel heavy with sadness, more for those who were close to her than for my loss of her, but I still feel it. It's strange; I want to shout that she's gone and will never be back. I want everyone to know she's dead. But they don't know. They don't know who Kristen Mitchell was or that she's gone. . .
If this is what it's like mourning the loss of you boyfriend's brother's ex-girlfriend, I can't imagine losing someone
close to me. . .